I am a Mom!

I have had almost 7 months to reflect on my new role in life.  I am a Mother.  I never thought I would be a mother.  I often used to fantasize about what it would be like to have another human refer to me as Mother, their caregiver, the person whom their whole world revolves around.  But it always seemed like such a fantasy from a far away place. 
Wikipedia says this:A mother is a woman who has, conceives, gives birth to, or raises a child.^[1] Because of the complexity and differences of a mothers' social, cultural, and religious definitions and roles, it is challenging to define a mother to suit a universally accepted definition.
Concieves? check.  Gives birth..check... raising a child...check!! I am a Mom!!  Wow,, it has taken a long time to sink in.  Sometimes I am so afraid I will wake up and it will all have been a dream.
My whole perception on life has changed.  I used to be known as that wild carefree life of the party girl.  No real perception of consequence.  Now every little thing I do, I carefully think out rationale and consequence.  I am responsible for another persons life.  I need to do everything in my power to keep her safe and me safe.  I look at my husband differently now, he is a Dad!  He is a wonderful Dad, he loves his daughter soo much.  I see his face light up when he comes home and see her smile!!  That for me is priceless, that is very satifying.  All those voids I used to try and fill with different things are now all filled in one little smile.  Amazing! 
I see the world differently now.  Every thing I see, is a memory, a reflection or an opportunity.  I find myself more and more reflecting on my family and an increasing desire to have that white picket fence family we all long for. 
I find I try and connect more to my own mother. I see her in a whole new light.  She raised us.  We were no saints..beleive me! She is a strong woman!  I use to think woman that just wanted to be a mom, no career aspirations were just weird or lazy.  Boy was I wrong, this is the HARDEST job you will ever have, its the most rewarding job you will ever have with life lasting benefits.  I would love to be a SAHM, unfortunately I have my own business that I also love.  The great multi-tasker that I am, I will run my business and be a great mom! 
Once you join the Mommy Club, you are drawn to anyone that is a mommy.  New connections, new relationships.  There is a special bond already formed because we are moms. 
I guess what I am trying to say,, the news has sunk, I am a Mom, a very proud Mom and I wouldn't change a thing!!!

Daycare

I finally found one.  I did it.  She is wonderful! She has a wonderful loving home.  They do all kinds of outdoor activities.  I feel really good about this one.  Shelby loved her!  That was great!  I am going back 3 days a week for now.  I think thats what I will do until I have another baby, and then I will bring her home again :-)  I am soo sad to leave her and I am so nervous.  I hope she will be ok, I know she will be.  Its me that wont.  I am sure I will be sobbing for the first few days! We are starting next Tuesday.

Sunny days!

Good Friday was a perfect day!  The first day of real heat and sun!  Can you imagine on April 2 in Ottawa it was just about 30 degrees,,,so like 80 F,,, Wow! I heard on the news, our record on this date for temp was back in the 80's at 21.... and it was 29!! Quite the record breaker!  We decided to take Shelby to the petting Zoo!   We had a blast!!  Little baby goats nibbled on Shelbys fingers!  I dont know what she thought of the animals but she was full of smiles!  Here are some pics!

Eating and Sleeping and

These seem to be the constant worries of a new Mom, oh and pooping.  Is she sleeping enough, is she eating enough,,, oh is she sleeping too much? Am I feeding her too much?  hmmmm that poop looks weird.,..oh no, shes not pooping.  Welcome to my world, these are the things that were constantly going through my head and just when I think i have it figured out.,..Its changed.  Anyways, now, for now anyways.. I have got it figured out!  She is sleeping beautifully!! I don't question it, she sleeps roughly 10 hours interrupted sleep at night and a 2 hour nap in the morning and a 2 hour nap in the afternoon! I know, that great eh?  There are probably moms out there that envy me right now!  I have many friends with sleepless babies or ones that have trouble falling asleep. Not mine, she gets tired and at the first signs of tiredness ( rubbing eyes, pushing her face into my shoulder) I put her in her bed and put on her blankies, I rub her head for a minute and kiss her goodnight, she plays with her blankies quietly for a few minutes and off to sleep she goes!  Every day is the same! She is able to fall asleep on her own even if she wakes in the night!  I know, this may change, I really am enjoying it now while it lasts!!

Eating is a little different, she was doign so well, she was eating cereal, veggies, fruits and now meat.  We seemed to have regressed a little. She will only eat fruit and sometimes a spoonful or two of veggies.  I think she got the taste for sweet and the hell with the rest!! LOL  I am not too worried about it for now! She will eat most things if she is starved!  She is still eating on average about 30 oz of formula a day.

Pooping?  Do you really wanna know?  Well you know she had the milk allergies before and all the trouble with diahrea, well now we have solid poops, yup!!  She is a pretty regular kid, not much to report now or worry about in the poop department :-)